Our Norwegian friends left on October 10, 2010. And they left us with a lot of excitement, questions and uncertainty. God had used them, and Thomas & Daniel, and Zack's 2009 mission trip, and so many other situations, events, and circumstances to speak to us. He kept bringing to mind the Great Commission. Particularly, that one little word: Go.
If you looked at us, you might say we were living the American Dream. A great marriage. Two beautiful children. A reliable car that was paid off, and a company car that also helped keep the bills down. A great house: big enough that we could spread out, but not so big that I hated cleaning it. It was filled with our dream furniture, decorated in a style all our own, loaded with toys and clothes and food. We both had great jobs. Good money, flexible work schedules. Zack was able to get the boys off to school in the morning before starting his day. I got home from work about the same time they did from school. The boys' schools were great. We loved our church. We had friends in the neighborhood, at church, and through other avenues. All of our family was within 2 hours or less from us.
And on Saturday, October 16, 2010, God did.
If you looked at us, you might say we were living the American Dream. A great marriage. Two beautiful children. A reliable car that was paid off, and a company car that also helped keep the bills down. A great house: big enough that we could spread out, but not so big that I hated cleaning it. It was filled with our dream furniture, decorated in a style all our own, loaded with toys and clothes and food. We both had great jobs. Good money, flexible work schedules. Zack was able to get the boys off to school in the morning before starting his day. I got home from work about the same time they did from school. The boys' schools were great. We loved our church. We had friends in the neighborhood, at church, and through other avenues. All of our family was within 2 hours or less from us.
But have you ever been homesick for a place that's not your home?
Have you ever been totally uncomfortable in what was once your comfort zone?
On October 11, 2010, that's where we found ourselves. Our guests were gone and we were back to our routine. But during that week, we both began to admit that something wasn't right.
It's not that we weren't thankful or grateful. But we were suddenly realizing that we weren't where God wanted us to be. We should have been extremely comfortable, but as we are learning, when you're not following where God is leading, He will take care of that.
I think one of the neatest things in this story - and one of the ways that God affirmed that what was going on now WAS his plan - is the fact that He was working on each of us individually, before He brought us together on the subject. I had been praying for a number of months, asking Him what He wanted us to do, where He wanted us to go. He answered my prayers through scripture, through spiritual mentors, through converations and chance encounters. GO. That's the answer that kept coming to me. Nothing more at the time. And yet, those two little letters, that one small word... said a lot.
I'd mention little things here and there to Zack. He'd sometimes have an excuse, like "I'm not smart enough," or "we're too old." Or sometimes, he'd just shake his head. Not in a way that told me "no." It was more in a way that told me that he wasn't ready. So I continued to pray. I knew that if this was God's will, God would also reveal it to Zack.
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LOVE reading all your posts and the suspense is awesome!!! XO
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